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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iRK6U5vIH
I knew the Kinks version first, this version was recorded as a theme tune for a TV programme called Jam and Jerusalem I believe. The video isn't anything exciting, just listen to the song maybe :) I like this sort of folky voice.
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- Mood:
contemplative - Music:Village Green Preservation Society- Kate Rusby
As promised. Photos from Wales :)
Fairbourne beach in the evening
Barmouth beach in the sun, looking toward the Llyn Peninsula
Sky over Barmouth
Seagulls at the harbour in Barmouth
Barmouth bridge from Fairbourne
More evening beach
Path to Fairbourne beach
and finally, the caravan itself, again.
I'm afraid the photos are all of the same two places. I have photos from Harlech too, and I must have some from Machynlleth somewhere but I'm not sure where. The latter is mostly shops but has some interesting galleries, we went there a lot from Carreg in lunch breaks and bought ice cream :) I don't know how I feel about it at the moment. I feel far better since Jane said I could go back to Carreg and stay in the caravan. It's not our caravan, and it's not the same area, but it's Wales. Gives me time to think about my camper van maybe.
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- Mood:
okay
Not only is it raining but it's very cold. My hands got so wet and cold at the yard that I couldn't feel them properly when I came home. They're alright now but I could hardly type before. It's supposed to be horrid weather all weekend too.
I've been looking through some photos of Wales. I have some I want to post here, obviously they might have more meaning to me as they're of places I love but some of them are just beautiful to look at (I mean, the subject is beautiful, I'm not complimenting my photography skills) quite emotional. I think I'll go and resize them now and attempt to post later.
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- Mood: contemplative
- Music:Hallelujah- Rufus Wainwrigt
I've borrowed these from Jo :) infact I spotted them a while ago and thought I'd try writing things for a couple of them one day, but never got around to anything. I'm posting them now to remind myself that they're there waiting to be written about.
1. Disease
2.Bathroom
3. Delirious
4. Autumn
5. River
6.Sunset
7.Relief
8.Silence
9. Night
10. Cry
11.Fair
12. Allergy
13. Death
14. Table
15. Early
16. Criminal
17. Play
18. Numbered
19.Fun
20. Full
21. Pack
22. Taste
23. Bleach
24. String
25.Flu
26. Court
27. Dark
28. Succeed
29. Truth
30. Lies
31. Business
32. Deception
33. Enter
34. Leave
35. Sneer
36. Gun
37. Office
38. Enemy
39. Father
40. B****** (Censored by Jo)
41. Furious
42. Accident
43. Joke
44. Benign
45. Insult
46. Call
47. Bonus
48. Inside
49. Outside
50. Traffic
51. Hand
52. Lock
53. Trust
54. Drugs
55. Trip
56. Smoke
57. Test
58. Survive
59. Hang
60. Commit
61. Polish
62. Brave
63. Cheeky
64. Rough
65. Struggle
66. Relocate
67. Misguided
68. Scatter
69. Bitter
70. Sweet
71. Aim
72. Lost
73. Confront
74. Forbid
75. Disaster
76. Creature
77. Organise
78. Elevate
79. Safeguard
80. Emerge
81. Wild
82. Fan
83. Sushi
84. Crash
85. Myth
86. Languid
87. Nocturnal
88. Blood
89. Pitch
90. Stash
91. Burst
92. Rush
93. Limited
94. Grim
95. Beautiful
96. Writer's Choice
97. Writer's Choice
98. Writer's Choice
99. Writer's Choice
100. Writer's Choice
I can't write stories. I can, but I can't write them well. I feel like writing something though, making up some characters. It'll be good practice for my English coursework too. I shall write one tomorrow I think.
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- Mood: concerned
I was lying in bed last night thinking over the days events and suddenly began remembering various things from our holidays in Wales. Little things, like walking around Dollegellau in the sun on the day we arrived, Barmouth in the rain (oh how beautiful and wild the sea looked in the rain) and evening walks at Fairbourne. So many things remind me of it, I think about it every day. The caravan has still not been sold, goodness knows what's going to happen to it.
In other news from today, I did my English Language exam. It wasn't too bad. Someone at the yard wants me to take a couple of horses to a dressage up the road. I said I'd love to :)
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- Mood:
crazy - Music:Happy Hour- Palladium
Internal factors are reactions that you create inside yourself in response to the world. Even though they happen inside you, it's best to think about them as behaviors because they are actions that you choose. By choosing how to perceive yourself, you can either behave your way to success or behave your way to failure. For example, if you believe you are competent and special, you will live up to that truth. If you believe you are incompetent and worthless, you will live down to that truth.
The powerful internal factors that shape your self-concept are:
Internal Dialogue: This is the continuous conversation that you have with yourself about everything that happens to you. This dialogue is constant, happens in real time (at the same rate at which you would speak the words aloud), and provokes a physiological change (with each thought comes a physical reaction).
Labeling: Humans tend to organize things into categories. We even categorize other humans by labeling them into groups, subgroups, classes and functions. But were you aware that we label ourselves? For better or worse, these labels have a powerful impact on our perception of self because we tend to "live" the categories we've attached to ourselves ("I'm a loser" or "I'm a winner.")
Tapes: These are beliefs that have become so deeply ingrained that they "play" automatically in our heads and influence our behavior without our awareness. Unlike labels ("I never win"), tapes have context: "I won't get the promotion because I never win." Tapes are dangerous and potentially self-defeating because they have the power to set you up for a specific outcome.
Fixed Beliefs / Limiting Beliefs: Fixed beliefs are the beliefs we hold about ourselves, others, and life's circumstances that have been repeated for so long they have become ingrained and are difficult to change. Limiting beliefs are the beliefs we have about ourselves that limit what we reach for and achieve. They also cause us to block any conflicting (positive) information while confirming any new negative information.
I certainly converse wih myself, inside my head, as it were. I also think as though I'm telling a story, or reading a story, at times. I know I categorise myself as being very shy and not especially good at anything so according to this I will spend my life being shy, and failing at things. Heh...
According to Dr. Phil, you can trace who you've become in this life to three types of external factors: 10 defining moments, seven critical choices, and five pivotal people. But first it's important to understand the following terms:
Ten Defining Moments: In every person's life, there have been moments, both positive and negative, that have defined and redefined who you are. Those events entered your consciousness with such power that they changed the very core of who and what you thought you were. A part of you was changed by those events, and caused you to define yourself, to some degree by your experience of that event.
Seven Critical Choices: There are a surprisingly small number of choices that rise to the level of life-changing ones. Critical choices are those that have changed your life, positively or negatively, and are major factors in determining who and what you will become. They are the choices that have affected your life up to today, and have set you on a path.
Five Pivotal People: These are the people who have left indelible impressions on your concept of self, and therefore, the life you live. They may be family members, friends or co-workers, and their influences can be either positive or negative. They are people who can determine whether you live consistently with your authentic self, or instead live a counterfeit life controlled by a fictional self that has crowded out who you really are.
This part of it interested me more.I'm sure Carreg was one of my defining moments, not only was it a fairly spiritual feeling place to be, it also gave me chance to think. It made me more positive about how and who I wanted to be. I didn't actually change on the surface very much I don't think, but I know I have felt different since in a way. This may ave been quite a long defining moment, perhaps beginning in a very small way when I first saw Equilibre and then being made definite when I worked there. It also coincided with me 'growing up' and going from being a rather naive child to someone who had to understand and know more. I think I found myself at Carreg, as ridiculous as it may sound. I think this may have been my only defining moment so far, I may have had another, a lot has happened in the past year and I feel different now, in a good way. Not in a way that has changed anything about me, just how I approach things, but I think that's just life going along as it does.
I do not think I have had a critical choice yet. I feel like I may have had pivotal people but as I apparentely will only have five I'm not sure. On the good side of things (the 'positive' side) I know a lot of people who have changed and influenced my life, whether they be famous, friends, or family, but I'm not sure what a pivotal person would be. I think, and hope most friends I have now, I will know for a long time. To me, all people I am related to, and am friends with, mean an awful lot. I don't change or pretend to be someone else with different people though, I like to think I'm very straightforward in a way (that's not supposed to be a compliment to myself). I have few secrets of my own, but will always keep those that others give to me.
It's all rather complicated. I sense I shall be mulling such things over rather a lot in the next few days.
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- Mood:
interested
Let's have another user pic for a change :)
I'm listening to the ISB at the moment. Ah how I wish I'd not missed their last live performance. They're so gloriously bizarre.
I have my first exam tomorrow. English, to be exact. Media and General Studies are next week. We got our Media practise paper back today, I got an E because I (as the comment at the top said) "Started really well" but then rambled off the question. I was supposed to write about how Gender was shown by the way the characters dressed and what they said but I wrote about how the acted and what they did instead. I had about twenty ticks on the first A4 page and two on the other (which was where I'd rambled off the question) Ah well. I learn from this mistake.
I'm currently slightly obsessed with a song by Palladium called The Greatest Dancer, but having not listened to this song (The Iron Stone) by the ISB for a while, I'm listening to it over and over again at the moment. I shall have to find the lyrics and post them. This is the song, I've posted it before but never mind http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5jCw1dblM
Be well
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- Mood:
calm - Music:The Iron Stone- The Incredible String Band
The glorious Christmas gift horse I mentioned yesterday, from Niroot. He's named Hebraico after the horse at Carreg with the same name, who he looks like.
The lovely little 'Triplet Pony' from Georgie. I'll find the photo of them all together at sometime.
The ISH I bought for myself. I believe it's called 'Cherish' but I shall be thinking of a different name for him. I fancy something Patrick Wolf song related.
and finally a Biendecado resin, sculpted by Lynne Fraley, I adore her work :)
There is also the desk horse, of course. But I don't have a photo of her yet.
I start college later tomorrow and finish earlier, plus I don't have to go in until one on Thursday which is nice except we have an exam but we've been told that we "Can't really revise" due to the nature of the subject. It's English so I'm just reading a bit more than usual.
I've had the Kooks in the CD player for a few days but I've just put Patrick Wolf back in (Wind in the Wires, to be exact) Infact I'm just listening to one of my favourite songs of his 'The Gypsy King' now. Best three albums I own I think, this one is my favourite, I like the obscure spookiness of Lycanthropy and the jollyness of TMP but this one is just a nice bit of both :)
Speaking of music I fancy a bit of ISB this evening, perhaps whilst I tidy my room.
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- Mood:
creative - Music:Ghost Song- Patrick Wolf
The year is going quite well so far *touch wood* I've ridden the horse belonging to the daughter of someone else at the yard a couple of times. He's gorgeous and lovely to ride so I hope that will continue. I spent the last few days of my Christmas holiday revising, doing some art and photography work, and pasteling model horses. I was back at college today but it's not too bad, though I do have an exam on Thursday (but I don't have to go in until one o' clock)
I went to the New Year Fun live show on Saturday. It was a nice change from the normal more serious sorts of shows though I think I do prefer those (though I don't think serious is quite the right word) I spent the day with Georgie and Niroot again, along with Deb (I met quite a few new people too, which is always nice) it's lovely to meet up with people who I don't get chance to meet up with often :) it was a very nice day. I returned home with three new horses, an ISH who was bought from the "For Sale" class (Georgie bought his friend) a gorgeous little CM G3 Highland by Georgie (to match hers and the one that she gave to Niroot, they're the 'Triplet ponies' :D ) and finally a beautiful Aragon resin painted by Sandra as a Christmas gift from Niroot. I adore this horse and had admired him for a long time so it was a wonderful, wonderful surprise to open the parcel and find him inside. (he was beautifully wrapped too) Thank you both once again very much for the Christmas gifts :D
I've finally persuaded Mum and Dad to take me to BVER live :D I wouldn't expect them to take me but Mum had said we could go on the train but then denied all knowlege of having said that. They've decided to drive there now, it's in Essex which is rather far but I'm sure it'll be worth it, I can't wait. there's Thames Valley Live and the forum meet up before that though hopefully :D
I have a desk horse. She's actually meant as a body (another equine given to me by Niroot, thank you :) ) but I've become attatched to her how she is because she's been sitting next to my keyboard. I had one in this mould and colour before who somehow got lost :( so this one is named Lizzie II after the first Lizzie. I may pastel her at sometime but for now she seems to be quite content sitting here keeping me company :)
Europa and Biendecado from HA still haven't arrived. I know they've been posted and are coming 2nd class but I'm worrying slightly. Hopefully they'll arrive tomorrow. I need to order some more Gesso primer for my resins I'e managed to accumulate, eep.
For now, be well- I shall have photos of the new equines and some new doodles soon :)
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- Mood: content
- Music:Matchbox- The Kooks
So the past few days have featured a live show, two wonderful Christmas gifts which I must post about here soon, and riding another horse for someone. I shall update soon.
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- Mood: creative
- Music:Long Road to Ruin- Foo Fighters
Happy New Year :)
Today was nice. I went to put B out, then went for lunch at Nan's. Spent the afternoon playing the drums again, I have some photos and videos of my playing, I shall have to post them.
For now here are a few photos.
George and I, this can be today's photo of the day. It was taken just after midnight. He does look a little strange though (and I think I do too, hehe)
Bernard and I
Some nice trees against the sky
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- Mood:
curious - Music:Seaside- The Kooks
I won't stop my silly rambles here I don't think. I need somewhere to put them and here is ideal, where people don't have to read things unless they want to :) I also aim to give my LJ friends more comments when I can and get more involved in online communities I'm in. So there's a New Years Resoloution ramble for you all. hehe.
I'm off to watch the Hootenanny (however you spell it) now. I may post again before bed, I'm in an LJ mood tonight.
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- Mood: okay
Strangles on the yard, Ben passing away , us having to sell the caravan. It's been a year of things making me sad and unsettled, it's had times when friends have been upset and as I've said before, I'd rather be miserable myself than have a friend be sad. Let's hope 2008 will be better, though I'm not expecting anything wonderful.
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- Mood:
sad
Also went to Paperchase. I've never been before and wow! I love it. I bought three notebooks (one has brown paper in) a pen with horses on and a matching pencil tin. I shall go back next time I have some more money, it's wonderful. I could've spent hours in there (I almost did, hehe) I want to buy some nice envelopes and paper next time along with a lovely big note/ sketch book they had with a linen cover that was like a book. They also do some beautiful tissue and wrapping paper. It's currently about number three in my list of favourite shops :)
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- Mood:
bouncy - Music:Land's End- Patrick Wolf
Here is the un edited version of them-
1. Look after myself better. Eat more fruit and veg, less crisps and chocolate and excersise more. Also try and sort out my horrid dry sore hands etc.
2. Be more tidy and organised. Keep my bedroom reasonably tidy, organise all of my college work and start to do the work on the night I get it so I just get on with it instead of leaving it until the last minute (try to get it through to myself that Media and English have to be as important as Art and Phorography)
3. Fits in with number two. Keep working hard at college.
4. Learn more Welsh.
5. Be nicer to my nans (I mean, I am nice to them but when they really infuriate me I have been known to snap, which is bad of me because they are lovely generous people)
6. Sell more of my customs, be more confident in my work and also improve them.
7. Try to be more confident and less shy.
8. Improve my riding/ jumping.
9. Make the most of everything.
10. Take every opportunity.
Hopefully 2008 will be a better year than 2007. This year has had some wonderful bits but there was a rather dreary summer and it wasn't the nicest year ever. Unfortunately I remember the bad parts.
Yesterday's situation is looking more promising. Fingers crossed. It's my project to make it work out.
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- Mood: optimistic
- Music:Ghost Song- Patrick Wolf
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- Mood: sad
The Equilibre Masked Ball. The day after that was the last time I saw the caravan, I left that day thinking I'd go back even if it was just to help empty it but I never did and never will. I think the Masked Ball was a very special fitting end to our visits to the caravan, it's difficult to explain the effect Carreg and Equlibre had on me but I can't watch the video without crying and I think about that place every day.
This doesn't need to be a sad post, however. It can simply be a special one remembering what has been and might never be again (such is the nature of certain events which occur in our lives and leave a lasting impression) I have to try and appreciate the time I had in Wales, and at Carreg without thinking about the fact it's gone. Carreg doesn't have to have gone, I fully intend to visit again as soon as possible.
In other news, I managed to sell a custom the other day. I feel more confident now, that a) I can make myself not got too attatched to the horses so I can sell them and b) I feel my work is good enough (just about, most of the time. I'm not there yet)
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- Mood: amused
I've had an amusing Christmas, with the usual family argument that seems compulsory in this house (and is usually my fault for some reason, but it didn't last long this year which was good. I was trying to persuade them to play musical chairs and mum didn't want to so she shouted at me.) lots of food, lots of gifts between us all (many of which were the sort of things my dear Nans want me to like, such as manicure sets and eyeshadow etc) which I pretended I liked because I feel awful not liking things they buy and two hours playing Irish Drums and dancing.
I shall do a proper blog tomorrow :) with videos of singing.
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- Mood: amused
Also bought make up applicators and superglue (the make up things are for putting pastel on horses) When we went into the shop dad thought I was looking for primer and showed me where it'd be, but I said "Ah I've not come for that I'm looking for eye make up applicators" he looked a bit confused, so I added "They're not for me, they're for my horses"
Of course, this only made him more confused until I explained. Hehe, horses wearing make up...
Not long until the New Year Fun Live now :D I'm excited.
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- Mood: excited
- Music:Street Highs- The View
Who was your last text from?
Erin
Where was your default picture taken?
In the car on the way to Wales the last time we went.
What's your middle name?
Ruth. I actually wish it was my first name, though I do like Chloe.
What is your current mood?
Ok, if ok can be a mood. Neither here nor there, hehe.
What color shirt are you wearing?
Aubergine and black stripey sweatshirty thing.
What was the last thing you drank?
Tea :)
Do you have a crazy side?
I have a bizarre peculiar side if that's the same thing. I think I'm bizarre and peculiar all over actually, haha.
Something you do a lot?
Say "Very Good" when speaking to people, or so I am told (in 'real life' rather than online) um, I over analyse things a lot, and talk about horses a lot. Hehe.
Angry at anyone?
No. I rarely am.
Do you wanna see somebody right now?
Any random person? Or a certain person? Depends who, if it was someone I knew I wouldn't mind I don't suppose.
Name someone with the same birthday as you?
An amazing sculptor/ painter/ pasteller person I know who's model horsey.
When was the last time you cried?
Last night :(
Who would you do anything for?
My friends and family :)
What do you usually order from starbucks?
I go to Eat ^_^ but if I did go to Starbucks it'd be a tea, or a smoothie, or a pepsi with a cookie- if they do those things there.
What's your biggest secret?
I'm a very un secretive person. If someone else tells me a secret I will never mention it to anyone, but in terms of my own life I'm very open and I think my family and most friends know pretty much everything worth knowing about me (I don't know if this is a good thing, haha)
Favorite movie?
I like horsey ones, and a few Chick Flicky ones like Music and Lyrics but I really want to see the Secret Garden at the moment.
What are you eating or drinking at the moment?
Tea! and I'm just going to go and get my box of Minature Heroes
Do you speak any other languages?
Bonjour (a wee bit of French very badly, from my GCSE in which I got a C :O ) and a bit of Welsh, I mean about 10 words.
Whats your favorite smell?
I don't really have one, but there are certain smells that remind me of things. I think I like the smell of hay and horse.
Describe your life in one word, what would it be?
Bizarre
Do you like the rain?
Yus :) Most of the time
What are you thinking about right now?
Sigh
What should you be doing right now?
Artist analaysis for photography
What are you listening to?
The Kooks album but I want to put the View on
What is your natural hair color?
Blonde (or greeny blonde, as mum says)
When was the last time you smiled?
About half an hour ago when I saw Julian Rhind Tutt on Oliver Twist. Even if he isn't a nice character in it.
It's the anniversary of the Prefect trip to London tomorrow! I don't belive a whole year has gone by. We'd have been doing our last Mock this time last year, I think it was Science.
MSN is being silly, and won't let me sign in :( there's a couple of people I need to say things to, so it would decide to be silly now.
I've been making buisness cards for my model horse painting. They won't print properly, which is annoying.
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- Mood: accomplished
- Music:She Moves in Her Own Way- The Kooks
